Today, I was talking on the phone with mum. 

She told me her eyesight getting worse now. 

Even need to use the electronic amplifier to see computer. 

Newspaper wording totally can't see now.

I feel so sad after I heard it. 

How I wish I can bring her to melaka for the ear traditional treatment every week...

But I just can't make it. 

I feel so sad, and guilty. For not being a good daughter. 

After giving birth, life totally changed. 

Sometimes, I feel imbalance. 

Taking care of baby is ok. 

But can't back home so often, can't bring mum out, make me feel the worst.

I hope Ethan can grow up faster, then everything back to normal, before it's too late for me to be a good daughter.